\”not givin up by natasha bedingfield\”
Who am I? I am a 50 year old woman or the new 30 as I have now heard it referred to. It is is hard for me to believe that I have lived half a century already, I feel much younger like a child. The years seemed to just slip away. I just went through a divorce after 23 years of marriage. Even though it was my decision, I feel so lost and alone now that it is over.
Who am I? I am the child or product of a poor,single parent , alcoholic home. I finally have admitted that this has had an effect on my personality ,my adult life and relationships. I am filled with self doubt, insecurity and challenges that I have to overcome to finally discover who I am or who I can become.
Who am I? I am a person that has survived sexual abuse. Something that I kept to myself all of my life as my own tormentor. So ashamed to admit it yet so scarred I found myself repeating behaviors through most of my life.
I invite you all along my journey to finding and accepting myself. I just hope I do not get swept away by the strong tide. This is very muddy water!
